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The trouble with hats...

Feb 24, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So people keep asking that ever-so-logical question of when am I going to get these books I keep talking about -- in print. A fantastic and valid question, to be sure. And I really need to...I have 3 done now -- am on Chapter 20 of the 4th one, with many, many others sitting quietly until it is their turn to be finished...or started...or thought of...poems, novels, other creative projects. The trouble is, quite simply, hats...you see right now -- the writer/creator hat is comfortably on my head -- with all its flair and color and creativity. I sit down with my notebook and writing instrument, which is usually a smooth-flowing pen, or like today, a pencil -- and I...

Being me...

Feb 21, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
"Remember always that you not only have the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one." Eleanor Roosevelt. Lately, I have become more and more appreciative of the people that know the inner core of me...know the me that I hide away from the rest of the world, protect with everything in me, and love beyond all other aspects of myself. There are many people that have met me and think that I am eccentric. The teacher part of me could be an actress on any given day; she comes complete with voices and more enthusiasm about thesis statements than anyone should have. The student part of me is a perfectionist beyond measure and nothing can...

Sit quietly while the grown up works please

Feb 16, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So the wonderful thing about freeing up my muse to have more time to play with the novels that we have put on the back burner for far too long, is that she gets to frolic and flit about like the beautiful spirit that she is. She gets to laugh and dance and giggle and just play and play and play. This is where my fictional worlds get created, where my characters become real, where my stories go from being figments of an imagination to something tangible. And I have truly enjoyed this play time. Sometimes, I have to ask my beautiful muse to sit quietly while I write on my doctorate or work on my research. There is no...

I think I've created a monster...

Feb 13, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So I wrote about my merry-go-round which had let on two new passengers...welcomed them aboard so that the 2 in the series became 4. Well...those 4 may have just become 7. For it seems, that there were three more people that were waiting just outside of sight that said, 'hey, this sounds like the place for us' and while I know even less about them than I knew about the two that joined last week. Just little snippets of ideas that seem to want to be connected. And here is the quandary. (First, as a sidenote...I love that word...love, love, love it!!!! And it makes me happy to be in a quandary, so that I can use the word quandary!!!!)....

And then there were four!!!

Feb 09, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So a story I started a few years ago decided to connect to the novel I finished the first draft of in December of 2010. Those characters and story lines held hands and played on the merry-go-round in my head and a series was formed with the very strong union of the two. As Cassidy and Stephen and Melanie frolicked with Jo and Eddie, other as-of-yet undefined characters watched from the periphery and sighed...I could tell they wanted to be part of the fun...who wouldn't, but wasn't sure if they were going to become characters in the existing stories, or if they had stories to tell of their own. As I was driving through yet another snow fall (will this...

"Wasted Time"

Feb 07, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
"And maybe someday she would find...that it wasn't really wasted time" (Eagles, 1994, "Wasted Time"). I have never really had a problem with my age...have never worried about getting one year older or getting one year closer to the next decade marker. I have always appreciated the lessons and growth that have occurred with each passing year. I also know that my writing is stronger now, more mature now, and more ready to be read now, than it would have been had I gotten serious about my craft sooner. So, mostly I am okay with my age and where I am in the world... But sometimes, I wonder if perhaps I waited too long...wasted too much time on this or that...gave...

Snow day...Snow day...oops missed opportunity

Feb 02, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So one would think that a snow day would give the muse free reign to play and play and play. Can't go to that job I love so much. Can't go to the store and spend money I should save. Can't go...well anywhere. Nothing to do but watch the snow fall and fall and fall. Should be the perfect day. A nice pot of coffee, food, all day to write and write and write. But I did nothing all day. I watched TV, I played video games, I spent too much time on Facebook, and I talked to friends. I snacked. I took naps. I watched the kittens run from window to window to see if it was still snowing....

I write to music

Jan 30, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
Some people write to silence, and I am completely in awe of those people that can drown out the inner voices and be absorbed by the silence. Silence is too loud for me...it gives too much volume to the inner thoughts and story ideas and questions that are constantly bouncing around in my head like too many ping-pong balls. So I listen to music to keep the random sounds in line and be able to focus on the page in front of me. What I listen to depends on my muse's mood and what project we are playing with today. Somedays it is only the hard, angry music that gets the blood pumping and the pen moving across the page....

But I promised...

Jan 26, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So recently a possibility for a job opened up and while every one around me was urging me to take it, there was a small voice inside my head that said, "no...you promised..." and at first it was hard to hear that small voice because of the cacophony of other voices...people that needed me to wanted me to take care of things...people that knew that whatever job I am in I will give 100% of myself to...and I would have, I don't know how to do it any other way. And I would have had to put my doctorate on hold and I would have had to put my novels on hold, because despite my intentions for doing so, there...

Better than pancakes

Jan 23, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So my fickle muse has found a new play thing...and she likes this one much better than pancakes. Last month with my regular intake of pancakes from the nearby pancake haven, I was averaging about one chapter a month for my current novel and about 3 pages a week in my doctoral studies. This weekend alone, I have written four chapters and 10 pages respectively. All thanks to my muse's new "pancake." It has been amazing and absolutely all that I could ever dream of, and since this particular pancake is only in my dreams, there is no harm, no foul in my day-to-day life. These dreams of this man, my new "pancake" has far fewer calories than previous monthly inspirations....

“I tell a story the way some people eat an Oreo cookie.” B.E. Zalman

Jan 19, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
Last night I was watching French Kiss with Kevin Kline and Meg Ryan...and the last kiss of the movie did the same thing to me it did every single time...that kiss, that have to have you, right here, right now kind of kiss that the audience can actually feel. I have gotten into fights with boyfriends about that kiss. I have dreamt of that kiss. I have wanted that kiss. Last night as I was watching that kiss, I had another thought...this from the writer side of my brain, and not necessarily the female side of my brain. I want to be able to write that kiss. I want to be able to write that much passion, that much feeling....

Most private of all thoughts...

Jan 16, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So I am reading a book called Creative Journal Writing by Stephanie Dowrick and I'm only about a third of the way through, but so far it has been reflective of all the reasons that I have kept a journal since I was about 13 years old. In it I can be myself, I can say the things that I don't have the courage to actually say; I can ask the questions I don't have it in me to verbalize; I can express the deepest, innermost dreams and parts of me without fear of ridicule or chastisement. I don't have to worry about who might be offended or hurt; I don't have to worry about what might be misconstrued or...

Well, this is NEW!!!

Jan 12, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So, I had a new idea for a story on Saturday...and hurried home to find the perfect notebook for it. I held tightly to the idea so that the quest in my notebook tub didn't lead me astray. And I found the perfect notebook and wonder of wonders...I got a few pages written down for my new story...so yeah on that as all too often the "I won't forget this" is quickly forgotten...but that usually happens at 2:00 in the morning when my beautiful muse tells me about this great story idea and I don't write it down, sure that I could never forget something so amazing...only to awaken the next morning remembering only that I had something to remember...until...

One story at a time

Jan 09, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
Sigh...so it happened again...I swear, I really try to be faithful to one story at a time. I really try. I mean, I owe it to my characters to be able to finish stories and I can't do that if I am bouncing all over from one plot to another like some hussy....I need to be monogamous as much as any writer is able to...to just really be able to stay with one project from start to finish without my usual side dabbling of other stories and other projects. Just once I would like to say to my current project, "I am faithful to you. I am completely here. This is what I want. Here and now. One hundred percent...

Hear my cry!!

Jan 05, 2011 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So it is too easy, far far too easy, to let the voice of doubt or the voice of "others" sway me from my writing. I have done it for years...instead of listening to my inner voice, the voice of my truest heart, I listen to the voice of the world...it is the voice of the world, surely it knows what it is talking about, right? But the voice of the world is about job stability and making money and it doesn't matter if you love what you do as long as you get it done and don't waste your time on silly pipe dreams that may or may not get you where you want to be. Live in the...

Reflections on 2010

Dec 31, 2010 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
As 2010 comes to a close, I am doing what so many like-minded folks are doing...I'm reflecting on the year that was and planning for the year that will be. This year started with a job that I did well but was not my passion. I had a friend that helped me to get back to my writer's soul, and lost that friend to a battle he could no longer fight. His inspiration filled me with the hope I needed to embrace my writer's true life. I stepped away from my job after I lost him and I became the writer, teacher, and student that brought my spirit peace. I so wish he could have seen the ME that I...

What's in a name...

Dec 28, 2010 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
No offense to the Bard, here, but there is quite a bit involved in a name. The characters' names have to be just right...have to fit their personalities...have to roll off the tongues of other characters...have to be the RIGHT name. I was 100 pages into Arianna's story before I realized that the Prince's name was William, and not in fact Zachary...so names are tricky...but the knowledge that Arianna gets to call William 'Billy' and the further knowledge of what that does to the prince...makes it all worth it...and of course the "find and replace" option in Word makes it less trouble. What puzzles me right now is the name of the book I am almost done with...have only 4 chapters...

If You Build it...

Dec 18, 2010 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
What is amazing to me is this past month, I have been surrounded by creative energy. I have been introduced to people that have projects and books they want to work on with me. I have people that have been wanting to work on things for a while now...and I'm helping inspire them to do that...I'm full of creative energy for my own projects, have someone helping me with pictures and may have someone helping me with cover art for my "children"...can't very well have them go out into the world without clothing, now can I. It really feels a bit like Field of Dreams right now. I feel that I have built the ball park and that people are...

Closer than I've ever been...

Dec 14, 2010 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
So, sometimes everything comes together. The universe has laid a path out for you and the sun is shining and even the bad doesn't seem so bad. You know it won't last...you know there are gray skies lurking about...it is, after all, what they do. But some days nothing else matters. Some days the world is so shiny. I am about 20 pages from having my 2nd (out of 5) set of doctoral papers done. I am about 5 chapters away from the first draft of book number 3. I have ideas for the other three sets of papers...I have research ready and notes taken for #3. I know where 2 more of my novels are going. I tell ya...2011...

Want to hide away from the world

Dec 04, 2010 by Michelle Denise Sodaro
Right now, I am full of inspiration and love for the written word. My muse is happily chattering in my ear, my pens are shiny in their box, and my notebooks sit at attention and cry "ooh ooh pick me!!" And tonight and tomorrow...there is very little that I HAVE to do so that I can play with what I WANT to do. For today, the quarter where I am teaching closes to start a new quarter filled with promises and excitement on Monday. My doctorate quarter closed last week and starts anew on Monday as well. But tonight and tomorrow...are all mine. I don't have an assignment to grade or do, I don't have a place to see or...