Balance

So after being dizzy for the last couple of weeks, I have really come to appreciate having balance (I have also enjoyed standing up without vertigo). Had my health screening and Blood Pressure is perfect as always, so that is not the reason for the dizzy...but I do know what caused it.

Teaching full-time is not a 40 hour and out kind of job. You grade until you are "done," you explain until they get it, and you care...well you just end up caring all the damn time. I haven't figured up how many of my Facebook friends are previous students, but I know it is a pretty high percentage. The care doesn't stop just because they graduated or the class ended. And that's fine. It's been my whole existence for the last 19 years, my identity, my calling.

I am in a transition phase of my life, where the teacher me is not the be-all, end-all of my existence and the author me is coming in to the light. This has been and is an amazing journey where I am rediscovering Michelle (as opposed to Ms. Sodaro) and I am learning how to do both...which is where the balance comes in and where I have failed the last couple of months. I have tried to cram in a full-time author life into my weekends and have caused myself to not have any down time and to feel horribly guilty if I spend time with friends or binge watching on Netflix during the weekend. This is not healthy.

So, I am going to try (again) to have author time every evening, thus lessening the pressure on my weekends and allowing me to hang out and chill like "normal" people do...and one of these days, maybe I will even try dating again...but one step at a time, folks.