Letting go...

So...I may have one or two control issues (Okay, that "one or two" is a bit of an understatement...)

One thing that being an author has taught me, is to let go of some of my control issues...for example...what a project should look like in the end. There have been many things I have tried to force into what I wanted them to be...and it worked as well as the square peg, round hole conundrum.

Another thing I have learned is that projects will get finished when they are supposed to...this is a hard one for me because I have A SCHEDULE. I have a GAME PLAN. I want these ducks lined up at this time...and oh crap...where did all the ducks go.

So what happens when I try to force plot points or formats...or try to line the ducks up at a given time to get done by my self-imposed deadline...is NOTHING. Not like...haha, nothing happens and life continues as it should...I mean NOTHING happens. Like Nada. ZILCH. Zero things happening. Which then causes me stress as I stare at the calendar and maybe, if I just stare hard enough, I can go back a few weeks and not stress and then not be staring and fretting. (Side note, where did February go????)

I trust the process. I do. It has successfully brought me to finishing and publishing 6 novels and I am about to publish #7...the process works...but it works on its own time and in its own way...and me staring at the calendar...and swearing...and pleading with the process...and putting more and more pressure on things...yeah, that is not how the process works. Who could work under those conditions.

So I let go. I stopped swearing at my calendar. I stopped frowning at my to-do lists...and I just focused on other things...and then a duck showed up...and another and another...and now, my ducks are as much in a row as they ever are...and I will finish #7 and all will be right with the world once more